So many of us loved OctPoWriMo that the
team, decided to create a blog for poetry prompts and challenges to have all
year long at Poets
on the Page. This week the prompt is Deep. We are to write whatever that
means to us, whether deep relationships, deep in the whole, or just plain deep.
The prompt took me deep in side to something that's been bothering me for quite a while.
Seeking to Make Amends
I should have said I’m
sorry a long time ago
I should have said I can’t
talk about this now
But immaturity and
fear
congregated in my gut
I was too unsure of
myself
Too much in the
closet
Too scared about my
future
Of what you might think
If I said I was gay
Scared about losing my
children
Scared of their
father
Just plain scared
With no explanation I
bolted
Vacated our
friendship
Tossed away all we’d
meant and shared
Before I’d moved to
California
To discover who I
really was
Life and forty years
flew by
Time enough to go
deep inside
Dredge up un-proud memories
Pull them out and
face regret
Regretting my
behavior
Regretting time lost
Without my friend.
I am so sorry.
